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So mostly I prefer the bottling-it-up approach to dealing with my emotions, and mostly it works pretty well. I think I've got most of you faked into believing I'm a happy and well-balanced human being.

Well, most of the time I am. But not lately. I don't want to get into it, but the past few months have been steadily getting worse and I'm having to admit to the scary D word: Depression. I have it. I have it, I hate it, it's gonna be ruling my brain for a while.

So what I want is stuff to throw at the depression to make a little smaller. Comment with good things. Give me a list. Profound things, tiny things, fandom things (things from your fandom or on mine, whichever), that time you got those shoes for ten bucks when the orignal price was ninety. Whatver. Our joys and our pains in fandom, they are above this shit


what i look for here is all the good. not just for me but for anytignwho needs thg list. Reasons to go on Reasons to live.

Reasons to live.

Reason to live..


because wtf are we doing otherwise?

So tells us things, Things that are good, The smaller, the better, Just tell us why we shouldn't die

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Right, so about that post last night. I am a lot more okay now. It was soothing to wake up, check my email on my iPod (as I do every morning) and find a bunch of reply notifs with a bunch of excellent reasons why life is actually pretty awesome. For clarity's sake, I'm not actively suicidal, but I've been there before and I know what it looks like when it's incoming, so what I was after was a list to refer to to keep myself grounded in case I end up really needing it. I knew you all would come through, because I have some incredible people in my circle, and so you have.

Uh, upon actually rereading that post, I apologize for any unintentionally ominous signs resulting from the deterioration of my grammar. That was just me fighting off my sleep meds long enough to get the post up before I went to bed. I will probably go fix that.

In conclusion, thank you, and I love you.