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Cathryn (formerly catslash) ([personal profile] remindmeofthe) wrote2013-12-31 08:55 pm
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so here's the sitch, my circle

I've been drinking, which only means that I have enough courage to tell someone about my situation.

The place I'm living in wants me out. I have a week. I am looking at homelessness.

Why homelessness? Most of my immediate family hasn't got space for another person. The only one who has space is my mother.

Over Christmas, Mom and I had a fight. It wasn't much of a fight, short and small, but it made it clear that she doesn't think my depression is important. Assuming that she would let me live with her? I think I would kill myself within a month. Not because she doesn't love me. She does. But she has had so much fucked up shit to deal with herself this year that I don't think she can handle my shit on top of hers.

So. My depression is bad. But not, in my fucked FUCKED opinion, bad enough. I don't want to die. I don't want to kill myself. It would be easier if I did. Then I could just do it and be over with. That would be nice. But I don't think it's going to happen.

But I still need so much help. I don't even know what I'm asking for. If you want to donate money, I'll give you my PayPal info. If you are a goddamn saint and willing to give me a place to live for an indefinite period while I try to get my shit together - well, you probably don't exist, but if you do, PM me and we can talk.

I'm broke and fucked and scared and I don't want to die but I don't know if I have any other option and help me? Please?
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[personal profile] j_crew_guy 2014-01-01 02:18 am (UTC)(link)
Send me your PayPal info so I can donate some money your way.
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[personal profile] ceitfianna 2014-01-01 02:37 am (UTC)(link)
Send the paypal account, I can send some money your way.

I'm sadly living with my parents and far away so can't offer a place to crash.
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[personal profile] adiva_calandia 2014-01-01 02:49 am (UTC)(link)
Shoot me your PayPal info and I'll help out any way I can.
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[personal profile] silveraspen 2014-01-01 05:37 am (UTC)(link)
Send me your Paypal info, okay? This username at gmail.

Adding on to the rest: there are other options besides death. I want you to know that, and to know also that you are loved and would be missed if you died. Please don't.

If you want to bounce ideas or just start talking and/or trying to work through some options for getting from where you are to a better place, I'm here, and I am certain I'm not the only one. The Internets are a powerful place, and there are resources out there that can help. We can help you find them.

Much love.
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[personal profile] vivien 2014-01-01 05:45 am (UTC)(link)
Sweet baby Gandalf, lady, you're not going to have to resort to death. This is serious and scary, but you have people who can help you. I will pay pal you, and you can call me or ping me tomorrow, and I'll be happy to talk through options with you. There are options, and like Aspen said, we can help you find them.
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[personal profile] misslucyjane 2014-01-01 06:28 am (UTC)(link)
I can only offer my love and hugs, dear, and you have all of that.
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[personal profile] remindmeofthe 2014-01-01 06:35 am (UTC)(link)
That means a lot too. It's important to remember that people care what happens to me. Thank you. ♥
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[personal profile] lienne 2014-01-01 01:20 pm (UTC)(link)
man if it was just up to me i would be 100% seriously like "ok marry me and come to canada problem solved"

buuuut unfortunately i already can't support myself and the step-creatures have opinions about who is allowed to stay with me in my room and their opinions amount to "no"

so.

*hugs*

i love you. i hope you get what you need.
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[personal profile] gileonnen 2014-01-01 01:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Send me your PayPal, this username @gmail?

Meanwhile--I really hope you can find somewhere. *hugs*
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[personal profile] akatonbo 2014-01-01 01:42 pm (UTC)(link)
I can't help with a place to live or with money, since I'm heading back to live with the parents for financial and mental health reasons myself in the next couple of weeks, but you might drop a comment to [personal profile] copperbadge for his Radio Free Monday post for signal-boosting -- here is his post about how RFM works, and here's the tag so you can see what kind of stuff he's been posting. (If it would help to know you're not alone -- I mean, obviously you're not, but knowing that intellectually and hearing people's stories are not the same thing -- there have actually been quite a few people looking for emergency places to live in the last few months.)

Also I am heading in your direction (parents are in MA), so maybe sometime we should meet up. The internet is a funny place; I think the first time we actually interacted was 1999, but that was also partly because I recognized your name from some even earlier fanfic I read.

Also I should probably start following you here instead of LJ!
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[personal profile] skygiants 2014-01-01 03:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Send me your PayPal info; I'll help however I can. I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this. There are always other options.
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[personal profile] wakeupnew 2014-01-01 09:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Hi lady, please send along your Paypal info ♥
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[personal profile] genarti 2014-01-02 03:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Hey you. <3 As Aspen and Viv say, the internet has options and ideas and many people who care about you. You'll get through this.

Send me your paypal info, okay?
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[personal profile] foozled_up 2014-01-03 04:53 pm (UTC)(link)
If you need any help looking for resources at all, I'm here. I wish I could offer staying here, but we wouldn't be able to feed you food, and that would end up worse for you. :/ But I'm going to do whatever I can to help you, offer support and help and looking for things and everything. I love you.
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